[All Time Low - FOREVER.]

Alex, Lisa, All Time Low,  

There is indeed a story at the bottom, so please don’t go, just yet.

 I have some things I’d like to get off my chest. 

You are the legend in my life… 

& I am the M.A.P...

[Universal Orlando Mardi Gras Concert 03.15.2025]

[shot on iPhone & GoPro]

LEGEND: 

noun

1.

a traditional story sometimes popularly regarded as historical but unauthenticated.

adjective

but it’s also…

  • a description or table of symbols, colors, or patterns used to represent data, allowing users to understand and interpret the visual information effectively 

Life is all about choosing your narrative carefully.  

I’m the MAP.

M.A.P - 

1. Model, Actress, Photographer 

I’m here to show the world what is real, authentic, and true. 

[Lost in Stereo performed live at Universal Orlando Live Music Stage on 3.15.2024]

[FOREVER. tour - *various dates* ]

[07.26.2024, 08.24.2024]

[shot on iPhone]

[Keep going.]

[The Sound of Letting Go 09.28.2023]

[Sony Cybershot 20.4 mp - point and shoot]

[Keep going.]

[97x Tampa's Next Big Thing 12.03.2023]

[shot on iPhone]

[Almost there...]

[Summer Ever After Tour 09.28.2018]

[shot on iPhone]

Welcome back...

I am not shy to self admit here, the very first time I reached out to you I was going through a lot and it was really insensitive for me to overlook the lyrics you had written so many years ago; the same song you’d been performing practically every show. 

It’s not that I was never listening to you; I merely had the weight of the world on my own shoulders during my initial message to you, and my mental illness had self admittedly gotten the better of me. 

I admire you so much. Your words are transformative and rich. Your presence shines like gold and silver. Your joy radiates worldwide. Your pain inspires generations. Your authenticity shines through past all the veils society tried to create. 

I am sincerely sorry that I could not get my head out of my own ass and onto the floor. 

Once again, it’s You who pulled me out of my comfort zone and into 6 states in under 3 weeks total. 

I don’t bring my camera. I use my phone, for I am a fool.

 A fool for respecting other’s rules - a little too much apparently… 

In Wisconsin, they said no moshing, but I knew people were gonna mosh anyway… Fuck it, anyways, we kept going.

In NYC, at the winery, they told us no photos, so once again I was scared to take photos... everyone was taking photos... Fuck, we keep going.

I have always been a photographer, so what was different about this time?

I couldn’t shake the feeling that you knew me more than I realized. 

Maybe you knew I was resorting back to the scared, misunderstood girl in me, or maybe you pushed me away because you deep down knew I had potential. 

Not literally pushing me away, but not touring in Florida for the Forever tours was definitely a choice.

That terrified me, but my story it didn’t end there. 

Fear is often one of our greatest motivators through struggle and solitary. We learn the most when we are left to our own. 

I knew that all too well. 

Where do we go when shit hits the fan...

… and where do we go after?

The silence told me it was my turn to speak up. 

You had been the one speaking out for 20 years. 

I had always had an issue with speaking up when it mattered most, but this was my calling, so I knew I had to keep going despite not knowing what the outcome looked like. 

I saw myself in every one of your songs. Every one of your albums I resonated with in my soul. 

Maybe that's why I fumbled over this opportunity so many times. 

It was bringing light to things I wanted to keep in the dark. 

I don't want to be left alone in the dark again, but do not be mistaken, I'm no longer afraid of the dark;

I walk alongside it as I carry the light to those I love who felt lost in the dark.

I don't expect you to forgive me, although, I do mean this in the sincerest way...

I am deeply sorry and remorseful for the ways that I made you feel unheard, unseen, and misunderstood. 

I do see You. I do hear You. I do understand You. More than You know.

I do hope this reaches you someday. 

Thank you for reading, 

I love you,

signed with love, 

Breana aka Brea aka Lavender Thunder

 contact me:

focusbybreanapflanz@gmail.com

instagram: @lavenderthunder 

407.488.3031

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